Not being there
When I was young
Waiting for visits
That would never come
Going to School
Keeping to myself
Reaching Eighteen
Still not there
Making a life, a career
You must be somewhere
Then, I find you
Not by choice, but by a need
Trying to reconnect
But gone again
Years pass
I have a daughter now
A daughter, I love
I want to tell you
I phone,
You fly,
You visit
Then out of my life again
Years pass
And I travel to you
Good times we had
Then life returns
Then you visit
I let you stay
Things are good
But it all goes astray
Not talking
Silence between us
No visits,
No contact
My daughter and I
Heard you’re somewhere
I let it pass us by
A call
A bolt from the blue
A hand reaching out
What should I do?
A visit
A fleeting glimpse
Trying to justify why
I should try
Seeing you there
Weak and alone
Wanting to hold you
Not wanting to get close
A Doctor’s words
A nurse’s hug
A mother’s look
A son’s….
Another visit
Is it too late?
Words are exchanged
Is it too late?
Two fathers together
It wasn't too late
Then you’re gone
How do I feel
Destroyed?
No.
Angry?
No.
Upset?
No.
In love?
Yes.
In Love.
We made our peace.
You are my Dad.
